This morning’s bible study was about living life full throttle and crashing and burning along the way. I’m realizing that I’m crashing daily. Hourly. Practically every moment. I’ve been completely absorbed and missing out on the greatness of my life and my family. I’m a big believer that moms need to meet their needs too. That no one person in a family is greater than another and we all have needs and emotions that need to be filled. Moms need to rest. Somehow I was sold a lie that sitting on the couch in front of my computer was rest. I check my email, 2 seconds later I check facebook, 2 seconds later I check Gentle Christian Mothers, 1 minute later I’ll look up a recipe, a few minutes into that I’ll feel the need to check my email again, then I’ll check facebook, than I’ll remember that I needed to order diapers on Amazon, as soon as I click Amazon I’ll decide to look up a new book to read, for some reason that will trigger the need to check my email, and if you give a mouse a cookie… Does this sound restful?!? No wonder I seem to have developed ADD. And let me add that while my mind is jumping from topic to topic I have 4 little voices in the background pestering me. Mom, can I have a drink? Mom, Coopa took my blankie! Mom, I sooooooooo hungry (this is after 3 pancakes, a yogurt, and a cheesestick all before 9am so I promise I fed her!). Mom, Mom, MOMMMMMMY!!! Just a second baby. Ping, pong, ping, pong…this is what my brain is doing! I’m a scattered wreck and I wonder why!
This morning was amazing. My typical morning I make the kids breakfast, get them fed and dishes picked up and then its me time. I sit on the couch with my laptop while the kids play or watch a cartoon and I get anywhere from 15 mins to an hour to just vegg in front of the screen. This morning after breakfast I turned on my Mumford and sons pandora station. Got out the big box of blocks and puzzles, sat on the couch with my coffee and watched the kids play. I read my bible study. There was an amazing peace in it. And rest. No one was screaming at me or begging for my attention. My mind was focused on one thing at a time. It was great. No I’m sure every morning will not be picture perfect if I cut my laptop out of the equation. Its not going to solve all the whining and pestering my kids do. But I’m hoping I will have more restful mornings ahead of me. And from now on, computer time is work time. Its not rest time.